Lately

Howdy folks. It has been 1 mth and a week or two. Sorry for the delayed update. Busy with work and all. Been having tough time at work which is expected. Somehow I feel like quitting. I don't know why but I have been having thoughts that maybe this job is not to my level yet. Maybe I still need more work to be done before I can actually take up this job. I don't know.

I know, I know... There is no better judge than meself. But I can't bring myself to quit. That is the problem. I know I will let myself down and worst, I will truly hurt my health by going on. I am already a 1st Stage Hypertension, which is not a very bad thing... But if it moves to 2nd Stage, I don't know what would be my next course of action. Of course the logical thing to do would be leaving the company and to find another job that don't kills me... Sighhhh... Choices in life...

Colleagues and friends have been telling me to cool it whenever I can. The way I see it, it is very difficult for me. Anyway, thanks for your advices and guidances. I appreciate them a lot. Hopefully I can put to good use some of your advices. Honestly some of you folks really make sense. Maybe it is just me... I don't want to lose to myself. Or maybe I am just a procrastinator. But I am trying my best to make things move... And I am trying very hard too to see things move. I may not be the brightest star in the sky, I may not be the best choice... But what I do, I do with all my heart...

Well folks.. Lets see what end of this month brings... Would it bring me back home to KL? Or I would be still in Sandakan. Either way.. There is always a way.... Good luck to me...