How could...

Man, Iam beginning to see a very weird pattern in my life. Certainly not a good thing I say... But it definitely showing itself very obviously. To put in a good way, it would be defaming,to put it in a bad light, it could really get me into loads of trouble from everyone. Then again, thats how I feel as a person and an individual tied to responsibilities I should take up when I reached this age. (No folks, I didnt get anyone pregnant, Iam too ugly for girls to come near to)

In reality, the world can be very unfair and the world can be truly a dissappointing place to be. Dont ask me why, but this is reality. Somehow, one way or another, I cant stop feeling this and I cant stop putting it in my mind... BUT I think the main question would be, how did I really end up there... Sigh.. If only things can be simple and easy, it would be great fun living in this world...But it is not...

Some may call it middle child syndrome, but in all honesty.. It does relate to it abit, but personally I chose not to believe so. Iam not an attention faggot. Maybe I do display some of the symptoms... But that is very hard for people who dont understand the concept of middle child syndrome to pick up.

Then again, life goes on.. My only salvation would be my work, my car, and I, myself and me... No one knows...