Foncused

Yes folks. Iam foncused. For the first time in my life, I dont know what I should do or how I should feel. Iam torn, Iam torn between my delusions and my reality. SOmetimes I dont even know which one is more real, or which one is more fake. All seems the same to me. Maybe what my frens said is true. I need to get away, far and away... Just to re-evaluate my life, take a good look at where Iam heading and where Iam now.

Lately, Iam not feeling Iam myself again, the experience is almost so surreal... Its like Iam having this out of body experience and seeing myself from another perspective. Maybe the previous events which led me to this conclusion... Could it be.... I dont know. But I hope it will end soon... Sometimes, it feels like having another person in myself, talking to me... Giving me suggestions and pulling me through the situations...

Well folks, if you cant understand what Iam writing, neither do I... Sorry.

To my dearest fren.... Tho you say no... I will not lose a fight without fighting!