Hmmmm....
Guess what folks?
This is my third article in 2 days, about 24 hours...
Anyway, it was pretty boring sitting here so I thought I write something.
Nothing much happen actually except Iam feeling pretty restless from everything again. Somehow the feeling is very much different, like learning how to squat and shit again... Anyway, just got some wind that another friend of mine, LCY has gotten married. Dang! Its like everyone around me is getting married. And hell no, I aint gonna rush into anything no more.
LCY was the first girl I liked, not loved. As I dont have the chance and the guts(Tho I admit I have loads of them around my waist) to know her better. I always known her as a friend. But of course she knew I like her, VERY much... I got to know her when I was in Form 1 on the school bus. At that time, she was only staying about a few streets away. That time I was pretty young, I was only Form 1 and being the naive and dumb kid, I dont know what else I should do other than seeing her moving to another place... We lost contact and inevitably, lost everything. But hey, life goes on... And on and on and on you dumb shit... Anyway got to know her again when I was in college after a mutual friend let me have her contact. I started action ASAP, but she is attached already... *Sigh* What a life...
Throughout my life, I think the most fucked up and most insignificant thing in my life would be my love life. It can be said, I have none tho I admit I had 2 relationships, but they are barely termed relationship as they are pretty fucked up too...
The first one was met with heavy family objection that I grew numb to the words
The second one............. I dont know how to put it as Iam trying very hard not to think about it anymore. It is really painful and it cut very deep into my feelings....
Somehow it just doesnt feels right anymore having a girl friend with me...
Anyway, Congrats LCY and I wish you guys have all the joys in the world.
This is my third article in 2 days, about 24 hours...
Anyway, it was pretty boring sitting here so I thought I write something.
Nothing much happen actually except Iam feeling pretty restless from everything again. Somehow the feeling is very much different, like learning how to squat and shit again... Anyway, just got some wind that another friend of mine, LCY has gotten married. Dang! Its like everyone around me is getting married. And hell no, I aint gonna rush into anything no more.
LCY was the first girl I liked, not loved. As I dont have the chance and the guts(Tho I admit I have loads of them around my waist) to know her better. I always known her as a friend. But of course she knew I like her, VERY much... I got to know her when I was in Form 1 on the school bus. At that time, she was only staying about a few streets away. That time I was pretty young, I was only Form 1 and being the naive and dumb kid, I dont know what else I should do other than seeing her moving to another place... We lost contact and inevitably, lost everything. But hey, life goes on... And on and on and on you dumb shit... Anyway got to know her again when I was in college after a mutual friend let me have her contact. I started action ASAP, but she is attached already... *Sigh* What a life...
Throughout my life, I think the most fucked up and most insignificant thing in my life would be my love life. It can be said, I have none tho I admit I had 2 relationships, but they are barely termed relationship as they are pretty fucked up too...
The first one was met with heavy family objection that I grew numb to the words
- Girlfriends
- Companions
- Life partner
The second one............. I dont know how to put it as Iam trying very hard not to think about it anymore. It is really painful and it cut very deep into my feelings....
Somehow it just doesnt feels right anymore having a girl friend with me...
Anyway, Congrats LCY and I wish you guys have all the joys in the world.
posted by Jeryc @ 2/20/2005 01:13:00 PM
4 Comments:
At 12:39 AM,
Anonymous said…
hey man stay tough. im not getting married yet. wongs not. youre not! the thing is... we got other things in life that matter to us now. weve still got experiences to gain before tying the knot. and mind you they call it "tying the knot" for reasons: usually its simpul mati. hahahha! lek ah!
At 10:51 PM,
Yah Wen said…
It's ok dude. Just 'Tai Hoi Ti' and I'm sure you'll meet someone who will love you soon.
At 8:19 PM,
Jeryc said…
Yah... Thanks guys!
Iam over it, just feeling a lil regret about the whole thing...
At 1:13 AM,
Reta said…
Hmm, you know you shouldn't measure up to other's expectations. Just listen to yours. Also, I believe in if you like that person v. much, you should fight for her =P
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